Family :)

Hello all, sorry it's been awhile, but I'm back! Yay :) My grandma is...well she's not fine necessarily, but she's a lot better than what my mom made her out to be. I thought she was babbling mess, but she can actually hold a valid conversation with you. She does have fluid on her brain, and it does mess with her memory a little, but not to the point where she's repeating herself every five seconds. I'm glad she's not as bad as what I thought, it means that I (hopefully) still have a lot more time with her.

I've been thinking about my family a lot lately, and how thankful I am to have them. It pisses me off when people constantly bitch about their family when they don't have a reason to. They should be thankful they actually have a family because there are people out there who have no one. My family and I are very close, especially my mom and I, but you would already know about that if you've read some of my other posts. I don't know what I would do if I lost any member of my family. Yes, we do have our fights from time to time, but in the end we always make up. 

Family isn't always people who are related to you, they can be people who you've grown very close to. The friends I've made this year, our round table, I would consider them my family too, that's pretty much what we are, a family away from home. I've grown to care about them all, and I'm so glad that I met every single one of them. This year is so much better than last year, and it's because of them. I don't know what I would do without our late night talks that can go from totally silly to seriously philosophical in a matter of minutes, or our random movie marathons, or even going on ROGO's and singing random songs the whole time. 

Thanks for reading my little spiel about families...

As always....Until next time....

Nervous

I'm seeing my grandma today...finally, and I can't express how nervous I am. The last time I saw her, she was able to hold a coherent conversation, now, from what my mom tells me, she can barely remember what she's said 10 seconds earlier. I don't wanna remember her in this deteriorating condition, I wanna remember her how she was when I was younger, lively, enjoying life....It's hard to think that I might lose her soon. I don't want that to happen, I'm not ready for that to happen.

I guess I'll fill you in more on how today goes the next time I blog...

Until next time....

Surprising

Today was a really good day. I honestly haven't had this good of a day in forever. Totally drama free. It was like a breath of fresh air, and I loved it. I wish everyday could be like this.

I'm so thankful for my friends. Even when I'm having an awful day, they always manage to make it better. I don't know what I would do without them, and our nightly round tables.

On another note, my grandma doesn't have leukemia, but she does have fluid on her brain and I don't know what that means but I do I know it's bad. I'm worried. More worried than I ever let on. I love her so much. I didn't tell her that enough when I was younger, nor did I tell her how much I appreciate her, and everything she did, and I feel like I'm running out of time to do so. I don't like it.

I'm sorry this was kind of a downhill post, but that's just the way my thoughts went. Thanks for reading.

Until next time......